Reminder for Myself

At this hour, I should have gone to bed but instead, I dig over my Mac-photos while Kyuhyun sings as a back sound. I came across several old picture back in 2017. I think it was the last time I got hospitalized at Antam. God hear my wish that day, apparently 😉...

Took some pic. My face was totally rounded and swollen but what made me suddenly want to write this is when I saw a picture of my hands like this (sorry if it's not aesthetic yep)

It wasn't hurt as it seems but it indeed remind me back to those memories I went hospitalized back and forth to the point I never afraid with needle and those stuff anymore.

And tonight, I look at the exact same hand on that picture. It's clean and free, and even can type this story.

I almost took what I have now for granted. I should have been grateful that I am able to experience what I feel right now. I have fully rounded supportive family, love my job, my friends, team mates, everything!

I almost forget that I wish what I have now back then and God hear my prayer.

So, whatever make you sad now, never ever stop believing in God, never stop to pray because we never know what will happen in the future.

Now, I want to seize every moment and enjoy my life.

xx

NS

Hold on the faith

Friday was an emotional day..

I woke up at 5.15am and feels damn tired. I came late to office stuck at a very bad traffic. It surely was not a good thing to start a day.

Daily lesson: Never give up, dont let your mood control you!

Keep the Faith!

NS -XX

Designing Destiny

Nice weather today here in Wisma Metropolitan, Jakarta, Indonesia...

It's just like another Thursday, ordinary one yet it feels different.
Today I feel free..

With a cup of hot lemon tea on my table, I feel like now having a new journey back to the past. Moment and memories are starting to play inside my head. What happen on Thursday? What so special about Thursday?

Thursday is a day after Wednesday and of course a day before Friday, The Weekend gateway. However, a Thursday is always having a special meaning because it's not the crappy Monday nor the happy Saturday but the moment between leaving weekdays and about having weekend, I called it middle moment.

Back at Uni, Thursday was my fave day. I forgot what year it was but the reason I love Thursday is I love the subject: Editing and Design with Jan Harkin. I also have a friend named Tass Barbadonis. He's nice and sweet :)

Well, I gotta go now. Need to attend the British Chamber Gathering with office colleagues tonight. Good Nite for now..

Daily lesson: Smile and laugh make you better..


Cheerios,
NS - XX

Belajar

Belajar merupakan suatu kata yang sarat akan makna perjuangan. dari sebelum dilahirkan kita sudah belajar bagaimana cara untuk bertahan hidup di kandungan. Belajar..belajar..dan belajar..

Saat ini, saya sedang belajar ikhlas.. belajar rela bahwa terkadang yang kita inginkan tidak selamanya bisa kita dapatkan.

Belajar merelakan sesuatu yang lama saya incar, bertahun-tahun..diambil orang lain..Tuhan memberikan saya penggantinya, mungkin sama baiknya, sama indahnya..namun tetap saja berbeda bukan?

Saya berjuang untuk ikhlas melihat barang kesayangan dimiliki orang lain. Saya berjuang untuk tidak menjadi egois dengan menginginkan semua barang itu jatuh ke tangan saya.

Ya, saya berjuang melawan diri saya sendiri..

Lucunya,

Saya berjuang untuk merelakan, melupakan, mengikhlaskan namun saya tidak berjuang untuk mendapatkannya..

Saya melewatkan ribuan kali kesempatan. Saya terlalu percaya takdir, saya terlalu percaya bahwa Tuhan sudah menuliskan jalan untuk saya, sehingga saya tak perlu berusaha, cukup mengikuti alurnya saja.

Saya terlena. saya gagal. dan saya rela....
asal jangan kau ambil sinar matahari itu dariku..

what I love in "Letters to Juliet"

I just watched this film with Nadyael this morning at chads. I love the plot of the story. simple, funny, yet so romantic! and I really adore Amanda Seyfried as the main cast. she's so lovely and the true icon of natural-beauty. I love her style as a fact checker and writer!!

Not to mention, the english man!! not that handsome thou, and do not expect a-cute-six-packs-english-man-with-tuxedo but trust me, you won't regret it!!

For those who think Iron Man 2, Avatar, or Robin Hood are not their taste, You better to watch this film. This film could bring your happiness (lebay).

I also love the soundtracks!!! Colbie Caillat and Taylor Swift.

this song is for opening scene and for last scene they use 'what if' from colbie to give us a-romantic-ending-ever!

Overall, 7.5 out of 10

Love,

Nad-

a-very-last-week

week 9 is over and it means I almost finish my study in this trimester. However, I still have 6 assignments left, not to mention the hardest one of course..

My day is getting busy lately. Since I have a chance to back for good this year and continue my last semester in Indonesia and arrange lots of stuff, it makes me thinking and thinking and thinking. This is the hardest choices in my life and I have to take all the risk. Back for good this year or at feb next year..

I love Indonesia. I really want to go back as soon as possible. But, leaving Australia this soon? I dont think Im ready. My visa is expired on march 2012 but I leave this city on 2010? Oh My God!!

Honestly, I really dont know. 

I need my student advisor...ASAP!!

a-confused-little-student,

Nad-

a letter to my star: Michael James Owen

I used to keep my special things in my safe deposit box. a few moment ago, I opened it. surprisingly, You were there..in my safe deposit box.

It's You, my Michael Owen..

I hope you could enjoy your flight to South Africa, I really wish you could join the three lions squad!

Love,

Nadda Salma

unimportant.

february gonna end..soon.

my reality gonna say hi to me very soon!!

perasaannya, ya antara pengen gak pengen, sabar gak sabar. sesuatu itu selalu berat diawalnya kan? nah rasanya pengen skip langsung ke bagian tengah..bagian yg moga2 aja gak seberat biasanya dan bisa diatasi dengan cepat :D

sekarang semuanya jadi semu buat gue. perasaan gue ke orang-orang disekitar juga semu. kebahagiaan ini semu. kesedihan ini semu. hmm..

tau deh ah, tidurr ajaahh..

catch ya later,

Nad-

random-nite-feeling

Pernah gak kalian ngerasa kebingungan setengah mati tapi gak tau harus minta tolong kemana lagi? aku pernah.

merasa butuh pertolongan tapi seakan sudah gak sanggup untuk meminta bantuan. merasa sendiri ditengah-tengah keramaian.

aku merasa belakangan ini kehidupan hanya penuh dengan kepura-puraan. semua manusia memakai topengnya. hebatnya lagi, setiap individu itu memiliki lebih dari satu topeng. jadi, bisa menyesuaikan situasi dan kondisi mereka. topeng mana yang 'pas' itu lah yang dipakai. dapat dilepas dan diganti kapan saja.

aku? aku rasa aku punya cukup banyak topeng. aku bisa tertawa bahagia ketika hatiku menangis. aku bisa menangis terharu ketika perasaan gembira menyapa. kadang aku merasa aku adalah salah satu aktris dunia nyata terbaik. walaupun tak jarang aku sangat buruk dalam menutupi hal-hal tertentu.

aku dan kehidupanku. aku dan masalahku. aku dan topeng2ku. aku dan orang-orang disekelilingku.

hmm.. tanpa mereka, aku ini siapa? aku hanya manusia yang dianugerahi jiwa dan raga..tetapi hampa..

aku manusia dengan banyak mimpi, harapan, dan cita-cita.

aku manusia yang sedang mempersiapkan lahir dan batinku untuk memasuki gerbang kedewasaan.

aku takut. takut sekali. aku butuh sandaran..

the chit-chat thought

When a man faces two girls in the same time, with the same attitude, and also the same hobbies. He will choose the girl who live near him. In the same land. In the same school. Not the ordinary girl who live far away from him. This girl only get a lip-man-service. Life is a matter of choice and so does love. Don't be sad if you're not the chosen one, just believe in some other time, the right one will be choosing you. Remember, Don't get too easy to fall because it is not that easy to forget :)

Ps: dedicated to my bf

Pps: thank you for the lesson dear bff :)

Ppps: girls, we are not an option. we are destiny!
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december girl :)

Hello december!
You belong with me. the one and only dear December..hihi.. sounds selfish sih..but i was born in december, soo i am going to meet my birthday soon..hihi..

2009 bentar lagi selesai and lets prepare to say hello 2010! hmm semoga tahun 2010 menjadi tahunnya gue. Aminn..

apapun itu, gw sangat bersyukur atas semua pengalaman yang telah gue dapatkan di tahun 2009. pengalaman berharga yang setidaknya merubah gw secara personal. pengalaman bertemu orang2 baru, orang2 lama, pokoknya semuanya deh! Thx God, couldnt ask for more deh pokoknya!

december-smile 2009,
Nad-