numb

Lately, i felt soooo clueless. but tonite, I am pretty sure that I have to make a new step in my life. I dont wanna cry, sad, or feel any pain..

when i'm all alone..

can't hardly define this feeling..

help.

ohh..say hello to my lil-very-faithful-berstfriend, Piglet :)

ps: since my blogger still error, i couldnt upload any pics, changes color and fonts..kinda hate it :(

an(other).lil.pics.pieces of mind.

Late nite till dawn conversation..

Surprise...
did u read my blog? cause after i post it, u call me and everythin's going to normal again...
happy to have friends like you :)

ignorance.

something from the past,

maybe i hurt him lots,
i hurt him too much
until now,
he pretends to be my friends,
but i know,
deep inside,
he hates me more than everything,
he keep on pretending,
i said "hello"
he act as if he didnt notice me,
i said "sorry"
he said "no worries"
i ask "are u okay?"
he answered " definetely, i am"
i said, "thx for being such a good friends for me"
he answered, "always been my pleasure.."

he never look into my eyes again, smile like my guardian, and protect me from my-damn-sucks-cats-phobia again..

this writing is belong to you, my-dear-unfinished-love-story

i thought, we could make it better but we couldnt
u never see me as ur angel again..
u see me as ur greates enemy..

i smile, it's hard thou

i thought, time will heal ur pain
but it never will..

oh my-dear-unfinished-love-story,
i cant say this words straught to u.
cause u never give me time to talk..

"I am sorry for everything I did, it was my fault..never mean to hurt u. i just have to stop it before everything's going to deep. i knew u are okay without me and now i know that im rite. i was lying at that time, when u hugged me, when ur head near me, when ur hands hold me..it means a lot. but i have to lie at that time, just to make it easier for u..happy for you now :) my aga..."

Now,
it's time for me to finish it by myself.
i already said everything that i need to say to you..
pardon my english, i cant speak mandarin nor dutch..
it will be easier to say it in Bahasa thou,lol :P

Goodbye, my-dear-unfinished-love-story
i'll never disturbing ur life..

Success always,
ur-used-to-be-little-angel
Nadda o:)

09-09-09

do u know what's so good about today?
the combination of the date today:09-09-09
do u know what's so good about today?
at 09-09-09 at 10pm..
the combination of all the numbers-- 09-09-09-10..

the good things is when i realize u still there..sitting next to me..whispering those words every morning..and looking to my eyes through your specs :))

i wanna close the book, but u are like my twilight series..
everytime i read 1 page, i couldnt stop to read the next page, and the other page..im curious about the story..it is so hard for me to close it :(

im open,

take care darling,
Nada

split.of.mind.collection.of.time

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

- Courtney Kuchta -



I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.

- Jessica Blade -


All the love that history knows,
is said to be in every rose.
Yet all that could be found in two,
is less than what I feel for you.


There is a dime a dozen...
Then there is one in a million...
But baby, you are once in a lifetime.

- Victor Rodriguez -

where is my home?

my Sun is my Home, isn't it?

ketika yang dulu itu belum selesai...

hi guys,
pernah gak setelah bertahun-tahun lamanya kalian pisah sama seseorang tanpa ada kata perpisahan yang proper dan kalian udah menjalani hidup masing2 dengan tenang, tiba2 orang itu muncul, dan look way better..damn-gorgeous..dan transformed into the most eligible person for you?

nyesel gak?
setelah bertahun2 baru sadar betapa bodohnya kita waktu itu menyia2kannya..

nyesel gak?
knpa waktu itu jadi orang penurut dan nurutin kata2 orang tua?

dan, suddenly, semua kenangan muncul lagi. kenangan gimana waktu tiap malem telpon, kabur diem2 dr rumah untuk makan dideket rumah, jalan kaki liat bintang..

suddenly remember, waktu saya gak pernah mau abisin makanan, dan kamu dengan relanya ngabisin itu,,huahaha

suddenly remember, waktu kamu jemput saya setiap jam pulang sekolah, risky banget..padahal waktu itu sekolah kita musuhan..

suddenly remember, waktu kamu potong rambut dan harus susah payah nutupin modelnya karena dilarang oleh sekolah, tapi saya yang minta model itu...

suddenly remember, waktu kamu dateng ke rumah, dan saya pura2 pergi padahal saya lihat kamu dari jendela atas, saya harus menghindari kamu...

dan..

when you call me your little angel

walaupun sekarang kamu ada di benua yang jauh disana, walaupun waktu siang-malam kita beda, tapii...rasanya, i need to talk to you.. to finish this unfinished love story...

Nad-

wedges,books,assignment, and winter

That's all i have now--
K.A.N.G.E.N
parah :(

anyway, Happy birthdat buat Sheila Almahdaly, semoga dy bikin facebook juga,hehehe...

waiting

yup,
its been like a year gw gak nulis blog yg berisi tulisan2 panjang.
euforia holiday bikin gw jauh sama laptop ini. indonesiaa, i love my country way much..rasanya gw gak pengen tinggal jauh dr orang tua, i mean my lovely mom,hufff

sekarang gw lagi di KLIA, waiting for my next flight to melbourne, tonite...
at first, i couldnt stop these tears, this sun glasses really help in covering my face,huhuhu..

waiting in Malaysia, at KLIA for 7 hours is not a happy thing to do, ditambah internet connection yg gak terlalu cepet, jadi nilai plus keboringan ini.

even worse, gw baru ninggalin nyokap gw selama 4 jam, dan gw udah kangennnn buangettt. ples, tadi di pesawat, sebelah gw adalah ibu2 sama anak remajanya, berduaan. oh my, gw jadi inget nyokap gw :))